it's been ages since i last blogged - don't even know why i still do, i guess every now and then friends (hi!!) pop in to see if i've been up to anything interesting. and to be honest, i haven't really. haha. i've just been lying around waiting for stuff to start, and while i wait i play wakfu.
so after FO went down momo, naru and i migrated along with a bunch of other FO players to seyken (named after seiken densetsu), only to see that go down very quickly (much to our dismay). i spent a week hunting for another MMO we could all play that would run on mac. i clicked on a thousand links (maybe more, who knows) and eventually found... wakfu. the name sounds really weird and almost unimpressive but the second i saw the website (and discovered that it was playable on a mac) i was sold.
MMOs are interesting in that you meet a lot of interesting people. they're like mini worlds. you learn very quickly about people's personalities and who's a jerk, who's not, how to run things, how to take orders, etc. great lessons for real life i suppose. S&P was all about extracting information about people, spying and catching spies, and coordinating stuff with people from all over the world. it was the first game in which i gave someone my password - a certain someone who eventually became a hilarious friend (although we're no longer in touch) and was extremely trustworthy. it was also the first game that led to me meeting a new person IRL, exchanging phone numbers, and being helped out. (thanks shadow, you da best)
FO took that one step further; i talked to people on tinychat, played jazz for them (oh lord) and made facebook friends (with only 2 people though; i rejected everyone else). i guess i can see how other people would find it creepy, but i don't know, i like to think i'm good at weeding out creepers. the only two people from FO that i added had real profiles and lives that involved hanging out with actual friends, respectable jobs and... well, nice personalities. adding random people on FB is something i might have done when i was 13 (except i wasn't even using FB then)... but i'm all grown up now, and i don't take stupid chances.
oddly enough, i've begun doing skype calls with people from wakfu. they've seen some of my pictures, and i've seen some of theirs. people still tell me it's hella creepy that i do that, and that i'm getting myself into something dangerous. to be honest i have no idea how or why they think that. plenty of people are murdered or conned or robbed by acquaintances. and plenty of people who use the internet are decent people. the people who go on the internet and talk shit about the other people would like - i'm sure - to think they're decent people. i dunno. i think as you get older you sort of get sick of backhandedness. just be honest, people will see through you eventually.
i'm not entirely sure how this all relates to wakfu. when momo, naru and i moved we made konoha again, invited all the usual people, and played together. but being with the same people over and over again, in the same "circumstances" is extremely stifling. it resists change. and it became like those girly cliques in high school where everyone is expected to "support" everyone, and if you disagree or show discontent, you either get cast out, or somebody starts spreading rumours about you. and so this happened, and so i left.
since then, i've joined a guild with a horrible back story, gained about 50 levels and some repute, and most importantly, made a bunch of friends. i wouldn't call any of them "close" friends yet - S&P friends are kind of hard to beat - but what's important is i would readily call them friends, i would certainly confide in them (in case you haven't already found out, confiding in people you don't know irl is great, neutral advice is the best thing ever), i would certainly listen to them if they wanted to confide in me, and i would trust them with some personal information.
someone in wakfu asked me what the best way to make money is. i said, run lots of dungeons. he asked, is there another way? i said, well, be generous with the drops you get from running said dungeons. he was appalled and couldn't understand how giving away things made you wealthy. but it's kind of cool how this is the same sort of advice some people give you in real life, telling you that if you're not a tightwad, and you readily help people in need, and don't keep trying to get money out of your friends, you'll probably go a long way. (not that being a master conman doesn't make you rich, but... well, doing it the "moral" way probably makes you feel better)
now that i've gotten to a point where i'm the highest level guild member and one of the most active contributors, i think(?) i'm supposed to be responsible for making sure people are set. so i try to do stuff when i can; if someone needs mats and i happen to have them, they get them. if someone needs gear and i drop it, they can have it. a lot of the time people go :O because they don't expect to get anything for free, and 90% of the time the kindness gets repaid. in some form or other. for the longest time i worked for a GL who kept taking things from me, and because i admired her and thought she was a cool high level player i stupidly gave her all my things, but later on it left a bitter taste in my mouth, because not only did she refuse to help me with anything; she repeatedly tried to sabotage me. which is disgusting. i have zero respect for people who step all over other people to get to a place. it's like that horrible coworker who backstabs you all the time, then puts on a smile and his best behaviour when boss walks in. GROSS.
makes me wonder what all these people are like irl. i know online personas can be drastically different from their real life owners, but surely these extremes don't occur all the time. if people can be nice in a game where there are no real repercussions to being a jerk, surely they must be even nicer in real life. which makes me wonder about myself and the type of person people think i am. do i come across as nice, or stuck up, or shy, or lazy, or selfish, or something else? and do any of these apply to the person i actually am in real life? (lazy would be 100% accurate)
but whatevs. if you're reading this, play wakfu! it is now f2p :)